Being Sick and Having Faith

Wow, last week was crazy.  I had a very sick baby.  He came down with the flu after one day at school.  So frustrating, to not be able to make him feel better.  The poor thing.  I was home all week with him.  And then this morning, I was back at the doctor because he came down with a cold on top of the flu.  I sure hope he starts to feeling better this week.  It has been a long one.  Sick babies are just no fun.  And I am amazed that something so small can hit every blanket, sheet and towel in the house. 

I went to a dinner on Friday night, and listened to a woman tell her story about surviving domestic violence.  It was very interesting and inspiring.  She says that all through her marriage to the man that was abusing her, she never lost her faith in Jesus.  She knew that Jesus was with her all the time.  It was just a matter of her making the right choices to get out of the situation.  It always amazes me the people that have an unending amount of hope and faith.  Where does that come from?  How can you keep believing when such terrible things are happening.  And this woman still has terrible things happening.... and she still has unending hope and faith.  It just makes me wonder how?  I have a really hard time with my faith when bad things happen.  And I think I may have some misplaced anger too.... and an "it's not fair" attitude. 

I have said before that I am not much of a church goer, and I don't have an endless supply of faith and hope.  Where can that kind of spirit come from? 

Now on to some more mundane business keeping items for myself:

Got to lose weight.  It is slowly creeping up, and I am feeling every extra pound these days.  I am swollen, tired, and getting acid reflux from very bland things.  Time to hit the veggies... and I have to do it for more than two days.  Of course having a sick baby last week, my priority wasn't quite with eating right, it was getting something hot on the table and taking care of my baby.  The holidays are coming soon, and I don't want to be out of shape for that. 

Saving money seems to be going well.  So far....nothing really in savings yet but credit card is going down... which is always good, have money for daycare. 

Organization:  Work in progress.  My thoughts were that I would put my son in school/daycare and I would take a couple of days for myself and clean and organize my house.  With last week him being sick, I got my vacation, but not quite what I had hoped for.  So it is a work in progress 15 minutes at a time.